1 00:00:02,332 --> 00:00:03,476 LOUDSPEAKER CHIMES 2 00:00:03,575 --> 00:00:06,077 ANNOUNCER:'The 08:30 Great Central Rail service 3 00:00:06,177 --> 00:00:09,079 'is ready to depart from Platform...' 4 00:00:12,323 --> 00:00:14,207 Think. 5 00:00:14,811 --> 00:00:16,696 Remember! 6 00:00:22,766 --> 00:00:24,651 SHE EXHALES 7 00:00:29,893 --> 00:00:31,778 LOUDSPEAKER CHIMES 8 00:00:32,607 --> 00:00:36,980 'The 09:35 Great Central Rail service to Penderham...' 9 00:00:42,145 --> 00:00:44,030 SHE GASPS 10 00:00:55,755 --> 00:00:57,200 WHISTLE BLOWS 11 00:01:00,301 --> 00:01:01,634 LOUDSPEAKER CHIMES 12 00:01:01,733 --> 00:01:04,687 'Please keep an eye on any personal belongings or bags. 13 00:01:04,787 --> 00:01:07,477 'Any personal belongings found unattended 14 00:01:07,577 --> 00:01:09,990 'are to be dealt with by security.' 15 00:01:11,158 --> 00:01:13,345 This the one, is it? Yeah. 16 00:01:28,840 --> 00:01:30,725 TICKET READER BEEPS 17 00:01:32,233 --> 00:01:34,118 HE GRUNTS 18 00:01:37,880 --> 00:01:39,514 WHISPERS: Fucking puzzle... 19 00:01:39,614 --> 00:01:41,211 Edward, I can explain! Leave me alone! 20 00:01:41,311 --> 00:01:42,832 Look, Edward, wait, please. 21 00:01:43,932 --> 00:01:47,602 Your mendacity is as breath-taking as it's inexplicable. 22 00:01:47,702 --> 00:01:50,505 And I thought I'd found someone to make this Godforsaken place 23 00:01:50,604 --> 00:01:53,898 half-way bearable! No fool like an old fool! 24 00:01:53,997 --> 00:01:56,575 Well, at least hear me out before you rush to judgement! 25 00:01:56,675 --> 00:01:58,158 It only just happened. 26 00:01:58,258 --> 00:02:00,609 Someone I was close to came into the station with my parents, 27 00:02:00,709 --> 00:02:05,530 and before I knew it, I was out. I remembered how I died! 28 00:02:05,630 --> 00:02:07,979 I was climbing the fence by Platform 7. 29 00:02:08,079 --> 00:02:11,788 I was trying to get over to it, but someone was there 30 00:02:11,888 --> 00:02:13,220 grabbing me and... Someone you know? 31 00:02:13,320 --> 00:02:17,009 I didn't see their face, but I know it wasn't a suicide. 32 00:02:17,110 --> 00:02:19,272 I wouldn't place too much store in it. 33 00:02:19,372 --> 00:02:22,062 Slippery buggers, memories, they play tricks on you. 34 00:02:22,162 --> 00:02:23,382 They're all that I have. 35 00:02:23,482 --> 00:02:25,832 How else am I supposed to find out why I died? 36 00:02:25,932 --> 00:02:30,055 Well, does it really matter? We are where we are. 37 00:02:30,155 --> 00:02:35,470 The past can't be changed or erased. My memory is real. I know it. 38 00:02:37,582 --> 00:02:38,952 Keep going down this road, 39 00:02:39,052 --> 00:02:41,238 you might find you don't like what's at the end of it. 40 00:02:46,084 --> 00:02:47,969 TELEPHONE RINGS 41 00:02:51,965 --> 00:02:54,152 Doctor Richard Shale. Neurology department. 42 00:02:55,320 --> 00:02:57,180 Is Doctor Shale available? 43 00:02:57,981 --> 00:02:59,865 When does his shift start? 44 00:03:00,545 --> 00:03:02,429 No, no message. 45 00:03:31,704 --> 00:03:34,041 What is it? Did you see something? 46 00:03:37,844 --> 00:03:40,671 I saw something. Someone was chasing me. 47 00:04:02,370 --> 00:04:04,254 Taking a tour round the station, yeah. 48 00:04:23,897 --> 00:04:25,782 BUZZER 49 00:04:30,568 --> 00:04:32,455 Now a better time? 50 00:05:04,135 --> 00:05:06,938 As our investigation team on the Evans case no doubt told you, 51 00:05:07,037 --> 00:05:09,275 in fatality cases, it's our responsibility to... 52 00:05:09,376 --> 00:05:12,820 I didn't speak to any investigators. Why would I? 53 00:05:13,119 --> 00:05:15,169 I barely saw her after Matt moved in... 54 00:05:15,268 --> 00:05:17,544 well, Doctor Goodson, moved in with her. He's lying! 55 00:05:17,643 --> 00:05:19,980 Ask him what he was doing hanging round my flat at night. 56 00:05:20,999 --> 00:05:24,443 But... you did attend her birthday party? 57 00:05:24,543 --> 00:05:26,427 Matt suggested I went. So what? 58 00:05:27,220 --> 00:05:29,004 The coroner determined the cause of death 59 00:05:29,105 --> 00:05:31,304 was due to Miss Evans' mental health issues. 60 00:05:31,803 --> 00:05:34,928 Did you ever witness any episode of that? 61 00:05:35,029 --> 00:05:38,457 Given my meagre contact with her, it's unlikely, wouldn't you say? 62 00:05:39,702 --> 00:05:41,751 During the weeks prior to her death, 63 00:05:41,851 --> 00:05:44,542 she told a work colleague that she saw you outside her flat 64 00:05:44,642 --> 00:05:47,243 on several occasions. Now we're getting there. 65 00:05:49,411 --> 00:05:50,668 I run that way sometimes. 66 00:05:50,769 --> 00:05:53,346 So, when was it that you last saw her? 67 00:05:53,445 --> 00:05:54,438 No, stick with the running! 68 00:05:54,537 --> 00:05:56,097 Why always at night, when Matt was at work? 69 00:05:56,197 --> 00:05:58,080 I don't remember. 70 00:05:58,722 --> 00:06:00,546 I've been out of the country for most of the year, 71 00:06:00,645 --> 00:06:02,530 I only got back last week. 72 00:06:04,717 --> 00:06:08,315 Columbia Vale University. 73 00:06:08,414 --> 00:06:11,043 Research fellowship, mitochondrial dysfunction and cognitive defects. 74 00:06:11,142 --> 00:06:12,552 Sounds impressive. 75 00:06:12,651 --> 00:06:14,889 Can you recall the date you left for the US? 76 00:06:14,988 --> 00:06:19,778 September 2nd, 22:30, Luton Airport, seat 22A.Very specific. 77 00:06:20,906 --> 00:06:22,793 It was a specific question. 78 00:06:25,455 --> 00:06:31,726 Er... September 2nd was... the day after Evans' death. 79 00:06:31,827 --> 00:06:34,517 Yeah, I-I didn't know about it then. He's lying again! 80 00:06:34,616 --> 00:06:37,306 Doctor Goodson didn't tell you? Well, why should he? 81 00:06:37,405 --> 00:06:39,830 You used to be flatmates, work in the same hospital. 82 00:06:39,931 --> 00:06:41,818 I'm not his fucking keeper! 83 00:06:44,626 --> 00:06:47,091 I only found out about it in the States, 84 00:06:47,191 --> 00:06:50,092 on her memorial page on social media. Now you should go. Now! 85 00:06:56,125 --> 00:06:58,913 You should be talking to someone who actually knew her. 86 00:06:59,013 --> 00:07:03,160 You're wasting your time talking to me. And wasting mine. 87 00:07:12,283 --> 00:07:14,169 Oh, Jesus... 88 00:07:16,619 --> 00:07:19,182 HE SCREAMS Argh! 89 00:07:36,148 --> 00:07:38,711 CHURCH BELL RINGS 90 00:08:15,078 --> 00:08:16,963 I'm so sorry. 91 00:08:22,770 --> 00:08:24,655 HE GRUNTS 92 00:08:28,574 --> 00:08:30,460 BIRD CAWS 93 00:08:56,013 --> 00:08:58,327 TELEPHONE RINGS 94 00:08:58,427 --> 00:09:02,060 DOG BARKS Hello. Hiya! 95 00:09:02,161 --> 00:09:04,925 TELEPHONE RINGS Hi, Rosie. 96 00:09:05,023 --> 00:09:07,829 I was thinking about you on Lisa's anniversary the other day. 97 00:09:07,927 --> 00:09:12,604 And me you. So many times I meant to call you, but, you know...? 98 00:09:13,619 --> 00:09:16,725 Get this. A constable from the Transport Police 99 00:09:16,826 --> 00:09:18,711 contacted me about Lisa's case. 100 00:09:20,106 --> 00:09:22,744 Tying up some loose ends in her file, he said. 101 00:09:24,479 --> 00:09:27,090 'I don't know, something didn't sit right. 102 00:09:27,190 --> 00:09:29,723 'If there's some doubt about her case, 103 00:09:29,824 --> 00:09:32,439 'why send someone so junior, you know?' 104 00:09:32,540 --> 00:09:34,021 Did he say there were doubts about it? 105 00:09:34,122 --> 00:09:37,454 'Why else would he be sniffing around, asking questions about her?' 106 00:09:37,555 --> 00:09:40,242 Because he doesn't buy it was a suicide and neither should you! 107 00:09:40,343 --> 00:09:43,862 'Hey, why don't we meet for a drink?' 108 00:09:44,263 --> 00:09:47,013 Time we have a catch up, hm? 109 00:09:48,109 --> 00:09:49,667 I'm free tonight. 110 00:09:49,768 --> 00:09:54,749 'Domino at six o'clock?' Yeah. Yeah, why not? 111 00:09:54,848 --> 00:09:58,105 Oh, I ran into Matt a couple of weeks ago. 112 00:09:58,204 --> 00:10:00,896 'He's still punishing himself over it. 113 00:10:00,997 --> 00:10:03,949 'Poor bastard barely spoke about anything else.' 114 00:10:04,048 --> 00:10:06,499 I've got a customer. See you later, then. 115 00:10:14,867 --> 00:10:18,526 BELL RINGS Why did you do that, Izzy? 116 00:10:19,769 --> 00:10:22,295 She was just trying to reach out to you. 117 00:10:28,538 --> 00:10:31,907 The 11:35 to Birmingham always leaves from Platform 6. 118 00:10:32,007 --> 00:10:35,923 That was one thing that one could rely on. 119 00:10:36,024 --> 00:10:37,920 And now suddenly, poof! 120 00:10:38,019 --> 00:10:41,560 It's vanished from the departure board! Ergo... 121 00:10:41,660 --> 00:10:43,481 Yeah, sir, if you'd just... I'm still talking! 122 00:10:43,583 --> 00:10:44,138 Sir, if you just... 123 00:10:44,238 --> 00:10:46,475 Passengers can't find it, customer numbers plummet, 124 00:10:46,576 --> 00:10:48,662 and your powers-that-be have the excuse they need 125 00:10:48,761 --> 00:10:52,225 to cancel the service altogether. Am I right? 126 00:10:52,326 --> 00:10:54,638 If you check the departure board, sir, 127 00:10:54,739 --> 00:10:56,598 you'll see the 11:35 Birmingham service 128 00:10:56,699 --> 00:10:59,789 has been temporarily relocated to Platform 4. 129 00:11:01,638 --> 00:11:03,422 My point still stands. 130 00:11:03,523 --> 00:11:06,062 LOUDSPEAKER CHIMES 131 00:11:06,162 --> 00:11:09,191 ANNOUNCER: 'The 11:35 Great Central Rail service to Birmingham...' 132 00:11:09,289 --> 00:11:12,004 How you have the patience! Practice. 133 00:11:14,326 --> 00:11:16,624 Er... I have news. 134 00:11:17,754 --> 00:11:21,049 Why check her out on social media if he barely knew her? 135 00:11:21,148 --> 00:11:23,336 And taking off to the US the day after she died! 136 00:11:24,316 --> 00:11:28,136 Coincidence? Mm. Or convenience. 137 00:11:28,235 --> 00:11:30,925 Three reasons someone goes under a train. 138 00:11:31,026 --> 00:11:35,261 They jump... it was an accident, and they fell... 139 00:11:35,362 --> 00:11:37,247 or they were pushed. 140 00:11:40,167 --> 00:11:42,052 Check this out. 141 00:11:48,424 --> 00:11:53,964 OK. Lisa's flat is on Victoria Road. The station. 142 00:11:56,174 --> 00:12:00,407 The direct route from her flat is south, down King Street, 143 00:12:00,508 --> 00:12:03,349 right onto The Crescent and over the footbridge. 144 00:12:03,448 --> 00:12:07,680 Wait, do... do we know for sure she was coming from her flat? 145 00:12:07,778 --> 00:12:10,922 Her partner confirmed it at the inquest, I checked the transcripts. 146 00:12:11,023 --> 00:12:14,542 They, er, they went to bed about 11:00... 147 00:12:14,641 --> 00:12:16,917 he, er, woke in the morning to find her gone. 148 00:12:17,016 --> 00:12:21,044 He tried calling her, but she left her phone behind. 149 00:12:21,142 --> 00:12:25,001 Now... from the CCTV, what there is of it, 150 00:12:25,102 --> 00:12:28,169 instead of going south down King Street, 151 00:12:28,270 --> 00:12:30,921 she took a left, went into Queen's Alley, 152 00:12:31,020 --> 00:12:33,597 then all the way down Dawes Road, 153 00:12:33,698 --> 00:12:36,842 before entering the car park... and reaching the security fence. 154 00:12:36,939 --> 00:12:39,217 If it was the station she was trying to get to, 155 00:12:39,314 --> 00:12:41,200 why not go directly there? 156 00:12:42,833 --> 00:12:43,748 Er, maybe she... 157 00:12:43,849 --> 00:12:48,073 It explains her circuitous route... she was trying to shake them off. 158 00:12:50,004 --> 00:12:52,052 Why didn't CID pick up on it? 159 00:12:52,153 --> 00:12:54,391 Well, maybe they weren't looking hard enough. 160 00:12:54,492 --> 00:12:55,899 Someone goes under a train, 161 00:12:56,000 --> 00:12:59,103 the assumption is it's probably suicide. 162 00:12:59,502 --> 00:13:01,992 They look for the facts that fit the theory. 163 00:13:03,839 --> 00:13:05,724 You're really into this, aren't you? 164 00:13:07,420 --> 00:13:11,756 I know it's only one tragedy among thousands that happen in the world. 165 00:13:12,925 --> 00:13:15,035 But we can't do anything about those, can we? 166 00:13:16,454 --> 00:13:19,656 Maybe this is one I could do something about. 167 00:13:20,675 --> 00:13:25,045 Plus, I'm into puzzles. Well... Wordle, sudoku. 168 00:13:25,143 --> 00:13:28,286 Yeah. Plays to my strengths. 169 00:13:28,387 --> 00:13:30,876 Well, you're not short of those. 170 00:13:33,286 --> 00:13:35,776 Does Inspector Barker know you're doing all this? 171 00:13:38,473 --> 00:13:41,502 Oh, you... Be careful, Kash. 172 00:13:41,603 --> 00:13:44,920 HE CLEARS THROAT I was wondering if, er... 173 00:13:45,936 --> 00:13:47,608 TELEPHONE RINGS 174 00:13:47,709 --> 00:13:52,574 Shit. Oh, erm... I've really gotta get this, sorry. 175 00:13:54,305 --> 00:13:59,052 What genius came up with all these new shift patterns? 176 00:13:59,150 --> 00:14:00,711 Yeah, well, all the chopping and changing, 177 00:14:00,807 --> 00:14:03,224 I'm the one who has to try and sell it to my staff. 178 00:14:19,847 --> 00:14:21,961 SHE PANTS 179 00:14:38,321 --> 00:14:40,283 SHE GROANS IN FLASHBACK 180 00:14:52,724 --> 00:14:54,605 SHE INHALES SHARPLY 181 00:15:06,525 --> 00:15:08,273 Barker clocked you weren't at the briefing. 182 00:15:08,371 --> 00:15:09,552 It's OK, I told him about 183 00:15:09,653 --> 00:15:12,345 your hospital appointment. Hospital appointment? 184 00:15:12,443 --> 00:15:14,908 I heard you on the blower asking for that urology doctor. 185 00:15:15,009 --> 00:15:16,643 Is it prostate? Ha. 186 00:15:16,741 --> 00:15:18,302 Been there, mate. 187 00:15:18,400 --> 00:15:21,616 Turned out OK but it was scary shit - for a while. - Just, can I...? 188 00:15:21,717 --> 00:15:27,163 It was neurology, not... not urology. 189 00:15:27,264 --> 00:15:30,245 And, erm... I wasn't calling about me. 190 00:15:33,750 --> 00:15:36,702 The woman who went on the tracks last year? Yeah. 191 00:15:36,803 --> 00:15:39,492 I've been looking into her case. There's definitely something... 192 00:15:39,593 --> 00:15:41,000 Wait... What? 193 00:15:41,101 --> 00:15:43,111 Platform 7, the teacher who climbed over the fence. 194 00:15:43,212 --> 00:15:45,851 Hold it. Let me get my head round this. 195 00:15:45,949 --> 00:15:47,660 I go over the line to cover for you, 196 00:15:47,761 --> 00:15:49,467 while you're going AWOL on a year-old case 197 00:15:49,568 --> 00:15:52,357 over some bird who topped herself? I didn't ask you to, did I? Fine. 198 00:15:53,453 --> 00:15:55,337 Next time, you're on your own. 199 00:16:13,208 --> 00:16:15,434 TELEPHONE RINGS 200 00:16:17,131 --> 00:16:20,650 OMINOUS MUSIC 201 00:16:20,747 --> 00:16:22,636 HE CHUCKLES 202 00:16:25,198 --> 00:16:28,212 MUSIC DROWNS OUT DIALOGUE 203 00:16:36,071 --> 00:16:37,667 WOMAN:Hey! MAN:Got you a coffee. 204 00:16:37,768 --> 00:16:39,652 Oh, thank you. 205 00:16:55,008 --> 00:16:59,244 Oh. You came. I was afraid that you'd change your mind. 206 00:16:59,345 --> 00:17:01,604 Let's get it over with before I do. 207 00:17:05,677 --> 00:17:07,536 LOUDSPEAKER CHIMES 208 00:17:07,636 --> 00:17:12,666 'The 16:36 South Rail service to Knatty Hill has been delayed.' 209 00:17:12,764 --> 00:17:16,719 How'd you know it was this one where Dad did it? Social media. 210 00:17:16,820 --> 00:17:19,494 It was the same platform as another suicide last year. 211 00:17:23,041 --> 00:17:25,565 I'm done. I'll see you in the cafe. 212 00:17:44,038 --> 00:17:46,125 Remind me why you thought this was a good idea. 213 00:17:46,228 --> 00:17:48,047 I don't know. Closure? 214 00:17:48,148 --> 00:17:50,422 The only people who get closure are the dead. You think?! 215 00:17:50,523 --> 00:17:53,027 It's never a good idea, revisiting the scene of the crime. 216 00:17:53,123 --> 00:17:57,670 Look, I've been thinking about you. And, erm, there's this guy at work, 217 00:17:57,768 --> 00:18:00,989 and his wife is a therapist, and she specialises in cases like yours. 218 00:18:01,090 --> 00:18:02,976 "Cases like mine"? 219 00:18:03,313 --> 00:18:06,266 Yeah, you need talk through what happened to you, Ella, with someone. 220 00:18:06,364 --> 00:18:08,302 Someone neutral, who can help you process it and... 221 00:18:08,402 --> 00:18:10,402 I don't need a bloody therapist, I'm fine. 222 00:18:12,221 --> 00:18:14,105 Open your bag. 223 00:18:14,518 --> 00:18:16,404 SHE SCOFFS 224 00:18:31,178 --> 00:18:32,057 It's crap what they say, 225 00:18:32,160 --> 00:18:34,508 that you can't smell vodka on people's breath. 226 00:18:34,609 --> 00:18:36,015 Yeah, well, I'm really not in the mood 227 00:18:36,116 --> 00:18:38,241 for one of your brotherly pep talks right now, Luke. 228 00:18:38,341 --> 00:18:40,803 OK. I know that I've been judgmental. 229 00:18:41,802 --> 00:18:45,247 But all those years, watching you lose yourself in pills and booze 230 00:18:45,348 --> 00:18:46,229 and God knows what... 231 00:18:46,327 --> 00:18:49,772 You thought I was weak... and self-indulgent. 232 00:18:49,872 --> 00:18:53,614 In fact, you actually told me that... more than once. 233 00:18:53,715 --> 00:18:58,100 And I'm sorry. Erm, you have no idea how sorry, 234 00:18:58,201 --> 00:19:01,369 but I didn't know then, Ella, I didn't... know. 235 00:19:02,348 --> 00:19:06,904 But this is your chance to get your shit together, don't you see that? 236 00:19:07,004 --> 00:19:08,753 To take control of your life, 237 00:19:08,851 --> 00:19:10,677 to be the person that you were always meant to be. 238 00:19:10,774 --> 00:19:12,029 But you have to find out who she is. 239 00:19:12,130 --> 00:19:15,562 And you can't do that on your own. She's expecting your call. 240 00:19:17,034 --> 00:19:20,503 And that's how it works, apparently. You have to take the initiative. 241 00:19:26,048 --> 00:19:29,829 It's not about me, though, is it? It's about you. 242 00:19:29,930 --> 00:19:32,772 Because if I clean up my act, then, hey, presto, 243 00:19:32,872 --> 00:19:34,394 your conscience over Dad is clean too. 244 00:19:34,493 --> 00:19:36,050 And you get to go back to your little family, 245 00:19:36,151 --> 00:19:37,673 knowing that you put the world to rights. 246 00:19:37,772 --> 00:19:39,482 Trust me, my conscience on Dad is beyond clean! 247 00:19:39,580 --> 00:19:41,519 Killing himself was the only decent thing he ever did 248 00:19:41,618 --> 00:19:42,912 in his whole rank, miserable life. 249 00:19:43,012 --> 00:19:44,897 I just fucking wish he'd done it years ago! 250 00:19:47,162 --> 00:19:50,702 Finally, something we can agree on. Ella. 251 00:20:15,328 --> 00:20:17,372 Particular kind of torture, isn't it? 252 00:20:17,473 --> 00:20:19,531 How they take it for granted, 253 00:20:19,633 --> 00:20:22,586 the freedom to come and go as they please. 254 00:20:22,685 --> 00:20:24,584 I was looking for you earlier. 255 00:20:24,685 --> 00:20:27,412 Your son and daughter were here. Ella was here? 256 00:20:27,511 --> 00:20:29,508 Did you talk to her? No, of course you didn't. 257 00:20:30,906 --> 00:20:33,051 How was she? How did she seem? 258 00:20:33,993 --> 00:20:37,203 They wanted to see where you... Where it happened. 259 00:20:40,251 --> 00:20:43,090 She called it, "Returning to the scene of the crime." 260 00:20:43,188 --> 00:20:44,751 Why would she say something like that? 261 00:20:44,847 --> 00:20:50,269 Cliches are a common coping mechanism in stressful situations. 262 00:20:50,372 --> 00:20:52,947 Your son didn't seem stressed, more royally pissed off with you. 263 00:20:53,047 --> 00:20:55,168 He and I never bonded in the way I did with Ella. 264 00:20:55,269 --> 00:20:57,247 They're complicated things, families. 265 00:20:57,343 --> 00:21:00,788 Then why did you do it? Why did you kill yourself? 266 00:21:00,889 --> 00:21:04,017 I had my reasons. I must ask you to respect that. 267 00:21:06,997 --> 00:21:09,421 Actually, it's not the first time I've seen her here. 268 00:21:09,524 --> 00:21:11,519 It was a day or so after you did it. 269 00:21:12,875 --> 00:21:15,892 Of course, I didn't know who she was then. 270 00:21:16,951 --> 00:21:20,418 She was in the station caff, crying. She was? 271 00:21:23,678 --> 00:21:25,465 You've no idea how gratifying that is, 272 00:21:25,564 --> 00:21:27,461 to know she felt my loss so deeply. 273 00:21:27,564 --> 00:21:29,597 You're her father. Why wouldn't she? 274 00:21:31,332 --> 00:21:35,105 Not my business. Good. We're on the same page. 275 00:21:36,836 --> 00:21:40,736 Weirdest thing. Seeing her crying that day 276 00:21:40,839 --> 00:21:43,148 was when my memory started coming back. 277 00:21:43,250 --> 00:21:46,092 Somebody said, Jung probably, 278 00:21:46,193 --> 00:21:49,522 coincidence is just destiny in disguise. 279 00:21:49,621 --> 00:21:54,183 Who knows? Perhaps our lives are destined to be entwined. 280 00:22:03,688 --> 00:22:05,472 IZZY: 'What kind of inconsistencies?' 281 00:22:05,572 --> 00:22:07,130 In the weeks prior to her death, 282 00:22:07,232 --> 00:22:09,755 did Lisa ever mention Doctor Richard Shale to you? 283 00:22:10,813 --> 00:22:12,938 Why? His name came up. 284 00:22:13,035 --> 00:22:15,688 Apparently, he attended a surprise birthday party 285 00:22:15,789 --> 00:22:19,159 Doctor Goodson held for Lisa. Did you also attend it? 286 00:22:19,256 --> 00:22:21,982 And he was around when Matt moved into Lisa's flat. 287 00:22:22,083 --> 00:22:23,792 What did you make of him? 288 00:22:24,194 --> 00:22:27,901 Dunno. I just... He didn't seem comfortable in his own skin. 289 00:22:28,003 --> 00:22:30,990 It's on record that Lisa became depressed 290 00:22:31,092 --> 00:22:34,913 during the school summer holidays but resisted getting treatment. 291 00:22:35,010 --> 00:22:38,379 Did she... discuss her reasons for that with you at all? 292 00:22:38,480 --> 00:22:40,438 No. We weren't in contact then. 293 00:22:42,625 --> 00:22:45,947 We had a... a bit of a falling out. A personal issue. 294 00:22:47,793 --> 00:22:50,279 And I never bought the whole depression thing. 295 00:22:51,677 --> 00:22:55,438 By definition, it means the absence of hope. 296 00:22:55,538 --> 00:22:58,759 That just doesn't happen over a few weeks. 297 00:22:59,860 --> 00:23:02,871 It corrodes over months, years, even. 298 00:23:05,322 --> 00:23:07,715 Until you get to a place you hope for something, 299 00:23:07,813 --> 00:23:10,076 but you know it'll never happen just cos you want it to. 300 00:23:12,899 --> 00:23:17,201 If you've a theory about what might have been troubling her... 301 00:23:18,481 --> 00:23:20,369 ...I'd like to hear it. 302 00:23:21,576 --> 00:23:24,939 Someone you love chooses to end their life... 303 00:23:25,040 --> 00:23:26,921 it doesn't end your relationship. 304 00:23:27,794 --> 00:23:29,390 It just leaves it hanging with questions 305 00:23:29,488 --> 00:23:31,915 you know you're never gonna get the answers to. 306 00:23:33,017 --> 00:23:37,247 I'm sorry, I just.. I can't wrestle with the whys of it any more. 307 00:23:37,347 --> 00:23:42,588 I'm sorry, I can't go there again. Perhaps... I can go there for you. 308 00:23:50,260 --> 00:23:53,202 MELLOW DANCE MUSIC PLAYS 309 00:23:55,082 --> 00:23:57,308 BARMAID: There you go. MAN: Cheers. Thank you. 310 00:24:00,742 --> 00:24:02,625 MAN CLEARS THROAT 311 00:24:03,154 --> 00:24:04,975 WOMAN LAUGHS 312 00:24:06,077 --> 00:24:09,466 MUFFLED CONVERSATION 313 00:24:13,389 --> 00:24:15,437 ALL:Happy birthday! 314 00:24:15,539 --> 00:24:17,021 CHEERING 315 00:24:18,621 --> 00:24:20,505 WHOOPING 316 00:24:22,088 --> 00:24:24,174 Oh, happy birthday, gorgeous! 317 00:24:24,274 --> 00:24:26,174 I hope you don't mind, I've brought my cousin Jasmin, 318 00:24:26,271 --> 00:24:28,740 I think you met her at my Christmas do. Yeah, that's fine, course. 319 00:24:28,838 --> 00:24:31,327 Hey, babe. Hey, birthday girl! 320 00:24:32,646 --> 00:24:36,989 FLASHBACK LISA: Was this your idea? 100% his. 321 00:24:37,086 --> 00:24:40,570 Ha! - Happy birthday. - Ha-ha. 322 00:24:40,672 --> 00:24:43,085 You look amazing. Thank you. 323 00:24:45,268 --> 00:24:50,342 And I suppose you was in on it too? He swore me to secrecy. 324 00:24:50,438 --> 00:24:54,509 THEY CHUCKLE I can't stand you (!) Thank you. 325 00:24:55,566 --> 00:24:57,354 Er... Many happy returns. 326 00:24:57,450 --> 00:25:00,658 I'm never sure what that means. Returns of what? 327 00:25:01,672 --> 00:25:03,759 Well, just that you'll live to celebrate 328 00:25:03,860 --> 00:25:05,383 more birthdays in the future. 329 00:25:05,480 --> 00:25:08,662 SONG: 'Valerie' 330 00:25:08,764 --> 00:25:12,154 ♪ And I think of all the things What you do 331 00:25:12,254 --> 00:25:15,771 ♪ And in my head I paint a picture... ♪ 332 00:25:15,870 --> 00:25:17,760 Come on, then! 333 00:25:18,100 --> 00:25:21,981 ♪ Cos since I've come on home Well, my body's been a mess... ♪ 334 00:25:28,577 --> 00:25:30,463 MUFFLED CONVERSATION 335 00:25:35,100 --> 00:25:37,062 LAUGHTER 336 00:26:03,772 --> 00:26:05,331 FLASHBACK LISA: 'What's going on, Izzy?' 337 00:26:05,433 --> 00:26:07,597 What, did someone upset you? 338 00:26:07,693 --> 00:26:09,918 Tell me who and I'll go fucking sort 'em out, babe. 339 00:26:11,801 --> 00:26:13,687 What is it, Izzy? 340 00:26:33,635 --> 00:26:37,552 You feel it too, don't you? Something happened here. 341 00:26:43,360 --> 00:26:44,504 ROSIE: Hi. 342 00:26:44,606 --> 00:26:47,472 Rosie! Mm! 343 00:26:48,674 --> 00:26:51,115 God, this place brings back memories. 344 00:26:51,213 --> 00:26:53,674 Yeah. First time I've been back here since her birthday. 345 00:26:53,772 --> 00:26:59,022 Yeah, me too. Seems like a lifetime ago, doesn't it? 346 00:26:59,120 --> 00:27:01,510 Not to me, feels like yesterday. 347 00:27:01,607 --> 00:27:03,909 Same again? Great. Thanks. 348 00:27:06,397 --> 00:27:08,697 What the fuck happened here that night, Izzy? 349 00:27:14,129 --> 00:27:16,010 Thank you. 350 00:27:19,519 --> 00:27:21,404 Thank you. 351 00:27:22,947 --> 00:27:26,415 Well... To Lisa. Lisa. 352 00:27:27,850 --> 00:27:31,068 Transport Police Constable showed up at the shop this afternoon. 353 00:27:31,165 --> 00:27:34,062 Said the same as he said to you, 354 00:27:34,164 --> 00:27:37,043 about there being inconsistencies in her file. 355 00:27:37,646 --> 00:27:39,568 I thought he seemed pretty genuine. 356 00:27:40,582 --> 00:27:43,447 Empathetic. What did he ask you? 357 00:27:44,466 --> 00:27:46,389 Wanted to know more about her "depression". 358 00:27:48,088 --> 00:27:52,963 Oh, come on, Rosie. When did you ever see Lisa depressed? 359 00:27:53,062 --> 00:27:56,091 Why else would she do what she did? 360 00:27:56,193 --> 00:28:01,997 She had no other reason. Yeah. That we know of. 361 00:28:02,097 --> 00:28:04,602 Matt was with her, he should know. 362 00:28:04,699 --> 00:28:09,010 Why is it that people think that doctors walk on bloody water? 363 00:28:09,113 --> 00:28:11,497 I knew Lisa since we were 11 years old. 364 00:28:11,597 --> 00:28:13,047 We went to the same school, 365 00:28:13,142 --> 00:28:14,892 we shared the same flat while she was at uni. 366 00:28:14,991 --> 00:28:17,404 There was nothing that we didn't know about each other. 367 00:28:18,935 --> 00:28:23,060 In all those years, she never showed one sign of depression. 368 00:28:23,156 --> 00:28:26,899 Not once, ever. Matt explained that at the inquest. 369 00:28:27,002 --> 00:28:29,465 It was the sudden-onset bipolar thing... 370 00:28:29,569 --> 00:28:31,127 IZZY SCOFFS Bipolar? 371 00:28:31,224 --> 00:28:33,446 What the fuck happened with you and Matt? 372 00:28:35,638 --> 00:28:39,001 You saw the state he was in at the funeral. 373 00:28:39,100 --> 00:28:40,586 He could barely hold it together, 374 00:28:40,682 --> 00:28:42,945 yet you hardly said two words to him. 375 00:28:44,230 --> 00:28:48,561 He loved her, Izzy. I know that for a fact. 376 00:28:50,262 --> 00:28:54,144 Yeah, well, maybe you don't have all the facts. Meaning? 377 00:28:55,730 --> 00:28:58,894 Stop fucking about, Izzy, if you know something, then say it! 378 00:28:59,990 --> 00:29:01,877 You were jealous of him. 379 00:29:02,403 --> 00:29:05,279 Yeah, all that stuff you shared with her, when she hooked up with Matt, 380 00:29:05,377 --> 00:29:08,358 suddenly, she wasn't available to - you any more. - Yeah, fine. Whatever. 381 00:29:12,599 --> 00:29:17,307 Well... Maybe this wasn't such a good idea. 382 00:29:17,405 --> 00:29:20,359 Yeah, maybe not. Hm. OK, then. 383 00:29:20,461 --> 00:29:22,887 You know, we can all feel guilt that we weren't there for Lisa 384 00:29:22,990 --> 00:29:27,522 in those last weeks. But blaming the one person who was... 385 00:29:27,626 --> 00:29:32,262 it's more than unjust... it's fucking callous, Izzy. 386 00:29:54,637 --> 00:29:58,269 ANNOUNCER:'The 17:05 Great Central Railway service to Birmingham 387 00:29:58,368 --> 00:30:02,327 'will depart from Platform 3. This train will...' 388 00:30:35,204 --> 00:30:37,733 You called me back, so talk to me. 389 00:30:44,557 --> 00:30:48,894 Er, OK. Erm, when you ran out on me, where did you go? 390 00:30:52,020 --> 00:30:53,904 I, erm... 391 00:30:54,472 --> 00:30:55,730 ...I went across the road. 392 00:30:55,829 --> 00:30:58,166 And I sat on a bench and finished this. 393 00:30:59,904 --> 00:31:03,330 And then I went around the corner to a pub, and I had another. 394 00:31:04,502 --> 00:31:06,387 Others, plural. 395 00:31:09,461 --> 00:31:11,695 It was all I could think about whilst we were here talking. 396 00:31:11,798 --> 00:31:13,829 "When can I have a bloody drink?" 397 00:31:14,926 --> 00:31:16,807 It's all I ever think about, really. 398 00:31:17,791 --> 00:31:21,155 I drink before work, I drink at work, in the toilets. 399 00:31:21,259 --> 00:31:25,384 And on my way home from work, I'll stop off at the pub. 400 00:31:25,486 --> 00:31:27,823 And at home on the weekends, I do the exact same thing. 401 00:31:29,027 --> 00:31:31,304 When I, when I fancy a change of scenery, 402 00:31:31,403 --> 00:31:33,457 then I will go to a bar. 403 00:31:33,554 --> 00:31:36,470 And I'll wait for a random man to buy me a drink. 404 00:31:36,573 --> 00:31:39,295 Sometimes, they even tell me their name. 405 00:31:39,399 --> 00:31:41,470 But I've forgotten it by the morning. 406 00:31:42,788 --> 00:31:44,679 Because when I'm sober... 407 00:31:45,768 --> 00:31:49,804 ...when I'm sober he's in here... fucking with me, like he always has. 408 00:31:56,140 --> 00:31:59,832 Do you remember this? I was gonna show it you yesterday. 409 00:32:01,380 --> 00:32:03,429 It was when I was home after my first year at uni, 410 00:32:03,526 --> 00:32:05,691 and I think you were, what, 11, 12? 411 00:32:05,788 --> 00:32:09,105 And I took you to the park. Got someone to take our photo. 412 00:32:10,429 --> 00:32:12,313 Dad was doing it to you, then, wasn't he? 413 00:32:13,218 --> 00:32:15,457 Edward. Oh, my God! 414 00:32:15,554 --> 00:32:20,005 And I remember thinking at the time, "What a little ingrate!" 415 00:32:21,055 --> 00:32:22,883 I go to the trouble of taking you to the park 416 00:32:22,979 --> 00:32:26,372 to feed the bloody ducks, and you barely open your mouth. 417 00:32:26,468 --> 00:32:28,027 Told Dad the same thing when I got home 418 00:32:28,130 --> 00:32:29,688 and he said that it was just a phase, 419 00:32:29,787 --> 00:32:31,681 that you'd grow out of it. 420 00:32:31,787 --> 00:32:36,044 And I swanned back off to uni, and I didn't give it a second thought. 421 00:32:37,540 --> 00:32:41,990 I'm your brother, Ella. I should have protected you from him. 422 00:32:43,379 --> 00:32:45,848 That night when... when I... 423 00:32:45,945 --> 00:32:49,187 I told you what he had done to me... and you went to confront him... 424 00:32:51,956 --> 00:32:53,291 ...what exactly did you say? 425 00:32:53,394 --> 00:32:55,666 I told you what I said when I came back. 426 00:32:55,769 --> 00:32:57,894 I was drunk, remember? 427 00:32:57,993 --> 00:32:59,136 HE CLEARS THROAT Yeah. 428 00:32:59,235 --> 00:33:01,926 Erm, I told him that I was gonna expose him. 429 00:33:02,024 --> 00:33:04,379 That I was calling the papers the next day. 430 00:33:04,474 --> 00:33:07,854 That I'd put it all over social media. 431 00:33:07,951 --> 00:33:11,316 And if I had to, I'd put posters on every street corner, 432 00:33:11,419 --> 00:33:15,277 so the whole fucking world knew what kind of man... 433 00:33:15,375 --> 00:33:18,430 the hallowed academic Edward Warren CBE really was. 434 00:33:20,277 --> 00:33:23,268 You know, when they called, and they said that he was dead... 435 00:33:23,366 --> 00:33:26,020 I thought that I was free of him. 436 00:33:26,123 --> 00:33:30,529 And... I thought that it was over. But it's... but it's not. 437 00:33:36,020 --> 00:33:39,337 Say it, Ella, whatever it is, tell him! 438 00:33:42,241 --> 00:33:43,606 When I was in a pub, 439 00:33:43,712 --> 00:33:46,058 a group of girls came in, celebrating something. 440 00:33:46,159 --> 00:33:48,046 And they were about my age. 441 00:33:50,222 --> 00:33:53,049 And... one of them kept looking over at me. 442 00:33:55,539 --> 00:33:57,738 And suddenly, I saw myself through her eyes. 443 00:33:57,837 --> 00:34:02,327 A 21-year-old, drunk, in a pub in the middle of the day... 444 00:34:03,380 --> 00:34:05,202 ...deciding whether if she has another drink, 445 00:34:05,305 --> 00:34:07,188 she'll even be capable of walking home. 446 00:34:10,413 --> 00:34:14,380 SHAKILY:It doesn't work any more, Luke. Why doesn't it work?! 447 00:34:14,482 --> 00:34:16,911 SOBBING:Even when I'm drunk now, he's still in there, 448 00:34:17,009 --> 00:34:19,536 he's still here... fucking with me! 449 00:34:21,271 --> 00:34:24,701 So, are you saying that you'll do it... the therapy? 450 00:34:28,020 --> 00:34:29,906 Ella... 451 00:34:32,281 --> 00:34:37,211 Will you come with me? Every step of the way. 452 00:34:37,314 --> 00:34:39,839 Let's get the car, I'll take you home. 453 00:34:51,979 --> 00:34:55,866 Or better yet, why don't you come to mine? 454 00:34:55,964 --> 00:34:59,546 Tess would love to see you. It's about time you saw the kids again. 455 00:35:09,046 --> 00:35:12,000 SHE QUIVERS 456 00:35:12,104 --> 00:35:13,988 SHE GASPS 457 00:35:16,558 --> 00:35:17,888 LOUDSPEAKER 458 00:35:17,991 --> 00:35:21,848 ANNOUNCER:'The 12:06 Western Cross service to Pelhamvale 459 00:35:21,946 --> 00:35:23,836 'has been cancelled. 460 00:35:24,138 --> 00:35:28,939 'Passengers looking to travel to Pelhamvale, Revington, Raserhill, 461 00:35:29,037 --> 00:35:31,790 'should take the 12:44 to Raserhill.' 462 00:35:35,107 --> 00:35:37,988 They were here again just now... Ella and Luke. 463 00:35:38,086 --> 00:35:41,442 They were? So soon. Why? 464 00:35:42,836 --> 00:35:44,720 They had things to talk about. 465 00:35:46,397 --> 00:35:48,223 Concerning you. 466 00:35:48,321 --> 00:35:49,354 Is Ella all right? 467 00:35:49,455 --> 00:35:52,406 What was that thing you said about coincidence? 468 00:35:52,506 --> 00:35:55,131 Years ago, when I was on my teacher training placement, 469 00:35:55,232 --> 00:35:58,826 the behaviour of a girl in my Year 7 class really worried me. 470 00:35:58,924 --> 00:36:01,954 Touching herself and talking about sex. 471 00:36:02,051 --> 00:36:05,082 Things no child her age should know about. 472 00:36:05,180 --> 00:36:07,079 Classic signs she'd been sexually abused. 473 00:36:07,180 --> 00:36:09,564 Fascinating, though this sojourn down memory lane is... 474 00:36:09,667 --> 00:36:12,944 Anyway, I reported it to the safeguarding leader, 475 00:36:13,047 --> 00:36:14,453 and he said he'd look into it. 476 00:36:14,549 --> 00:36:17,388 A week or so later, I checked in with him. And he said... 477 00:36:17,491 --> 00:36:20,183 he said that he'd spoken with her father, 478 00:36:20,281 --> 00:36:23,196 who was adamant that she didn't behave like that at home, 479 00:36:23,299 --> 00:36:25,989 and that she must have learnt it from one of the older students. 480 00:36:27,089 --> 00:36:29,437 Apparently, he was on the Board of Governors 481 00:36:29,538 --> 00:36:33,812 and was a major donor to the school, so his word was never questioned. 482 00:36:33,913 --> 00:36:36,223 Even so, I should have stood my ground. 483 00:36:36,321 --> 00:36:40,522 But I didn't. I let it go. I failed her. 484 00:36:40,620 --> 00:36:43,687 But you didn't kill yourself out of shame, or even guilt, did you? 485 00:36:43,790 --> 00:36:47,913 You did it out of cowardice because your son was going to expose you. 486 00:36:48,511 --> 00:36:50,261 SHE SCOFFS What, nothing to say? 487 00:36:50,357 --> 00:36:52,370 That's not like you. You're usually full of it. 488 00:36:52,471 --> 00:36:54,781 Then again, there is nothing you could possibly say 489 00:36:54,879 --> 00:36:57,105 that I'll ever want to hear. 490 00:36:57,203 --> 00:36:59,888 Before you get vertigo on your fucking moral high horse, 491 00:36:59,991 --> 00:37:02,040 you should know that everything I shared with Ella 492 00:37:02,138 --> 00:37:05,096 was entirely consensual! I was always scrupulous about that. 493 00:37:06,196 --> 00:37:07,790 Luke was right. 494 00:37:07,888 --> 00:37:12,001 It's a damn shame you didn't jump under that train years ago. 495 00:37:12,104 --> 00:37:14,376 Oh, I'm not the coward here! At least I know why I did it! 496 00:37:14,479 --> 00:37:16,336 You're the one on some deluded quest, 497 00:37:16,436 --> 00:37:19,048 trying to find someone to blame because you can't face the fact 498 00:37:19,153 --> 00:37:21,347 that your life was an abject, pointless failure! 499 00:37:21,445 --> 00:37:23,985 You know nothing about my life. 500 00:37:24,088 --> 00:37:27,405 You ended up under a train. Hardly a success story, was it? 501 00:37:50,156 --> 00:37:52,095 Ella! 502 00:37:52,193 --> 00:37:54,077 Ella! 503 00:37:55,169 --> 00:37:57,053 Ella! 504 00:38:08,972 --> 00:38:10,568 I'm trying to imagine if you were here, 505 00:38:10,669 --> 00:38:13,120 what your side of this conversation would be, Dad. 506 00:38:14,211 --> 00:38:16,778 But when I think about it, I know what you'd say. 507 00:38:23,185 --> 00:38:25,597 You'd say, "Make Daddy happy, Ella! 508 00:38:27,144 --> 00:38:29,406 "Show me you love me, Ella!" 509 00:38:32,669 --> 00:38:34,553 I was a child. 510 00:38:36,702 --> 00:38:38,586 And I trusted you! 511 00:38:40,885 --> 00:38:42,294 And all these years after, 512 00:38:42,394 --> 00:38:46,693 of feeling dirty... and feeling worthless... 513 00:38:48,312 --> 00:38:50,888 ...and all my fucked-up relationships 514 00:38:50,986 --> 00:38:56,169 because you, you told me sex was just about love, and I believed you! 515 00:38:56,269 --> 00:39:00,943 Well, fuck you, Dad! Fuck you! 516 00:39:05,018 --> 00:39:06,902 I survived! 517 00:39:09,993 --> 00:39:12,819 SHAKILY:And I want others to know that they can survive too... 518 00:39:13,877 --> 00:39:17,085 ...and that they're not alone and that it's not their fault either. 519 00:39:19,587 --> 00:39:23,484 SHE SOBS I'm gonna finish what Luke started. 520 00:39:23,585 --> 00:39:26,163 And I am... I am gonna drag your name through so much shit, 521 00:39:26,261 --> 00:39:28,337 that's all you'll ever be remembered for. 522 00:39:29,960 --> 00:39:31,703 And then I'm gonna wipe you from my mind 523 00:39:31,801 --> 00:39:33,768 like you never fucking existed. 524 00:39:38,364 --> 00:39:40,402 You don't get to haunt me any more! 525 00:39:44,395 --> 00:39:47,337 You won't even be a ghost in my memory. 526 00:39:56,234 --> 00:39:58,118 CHURCH BELL RINGS 527 00:40:23,794 --> 00:40:25,676 TELEPHONE RINGS 528 00:41:46,176 --> 00:41:48,739 Go on, give me your simmering, sexy look. 529 00:41:51,227 --> 00:41:54,029 Ha! Oh, my God, that would make a great Christmas card! 530 00:41:54,127 --> 00:41:55,125 SHE GIGGLES 531 00:41:55,227 --> 00:41:58,692 If you... if you dare! If you dared! 532 00:41:59,785 --> 00:42:01,669 SHE CHUCKLES 533 00:42:13,962 --> 00:42:17,634 Lockhart requesting the file on that fatality last year from CID, 534 00:42:17,734 --> 00:42:19,618 did you know about it? 535 00:42:20,183 --> 00:42:23,538 Did you know? No... sir. 536 00:42:24,859 --> 00:42:28,843 Find him. Tell him I want him in my office by close of play, 537 00:42:28,939 --> 00:42:30,826 or don't bother coming back at all! 538 00:42:46,938 --> 00:42:49,438 LOUDSPEAKER: 'Dr Beardmore, Resus Bay 2.' 539 00:42:49,543 --> 00:42:51,362 MOBILE RINGS 540 00:42:51,459 --> 00:42:53,552 Lockhart. 'You're in deep shit, man.' 541 00:42:53,650 --> 00:42:55,883 CID's file on the fatality case you requested, 542 00:42:55,987 --> 00:42:58,677 Barker's onto it. He's gone fucking ape. 543 00:42:58,776 --> 00:43:00,661 'He wants you back in his office ASAP.' 544 00:43:01,679 --> 00:43:03,563 'Kash?' AKASH HANGS UP 545 00:43:05,563 --> 00:43:07,447 Prize one fucking idiot! 546 00:43:08,880 --> 00:43:11,103 If you hadn't come to me, I'd have come to you. 547 00:43:12,987 --> 00:43:14,876 Please. 548 00:43:20,927 --> 00:43:23,487 Do you mind if I record this? I want you to. 549 00:43:31,219 --> 00:43:33,217 I don't know where to begin. 550 00:43:37,025 --> 00:43:38,909 KEYS JANGLE 551 00:43:41,360 --> 00:43:43,142 FOOTSTEPS 552 00:43:43,242 --> 00:43:45,130 DOG BARKS IN DISTANCE 553 00:43:53,139 --> 00:43:56,083 WOMAN:Great flat. MATT: Glad you approve. 554 00:44:01,360 --> 00:44:03,246 Who's this? 555 00:44:07,844 --> 00:44:09,728 Lisa. 556 00:44:10,409 --> 00:44:17,843 It's my ex. I was having a clear-out of some things and... 557 00:44:20,593 --> 00:44:23,761 She died. Suicide. 558 00:44:25,118 --> 00:44:28,483 My God... For the first few months after she moved in, 559 00:44:28,587 --> 00:44:31,233 I-I really thought we were heading somewhere. 560 00:44:31,337 --> 00:44:34,050 Then suddenly, she changed into a completely different person. 561 00:44:36,127 --> 00:44:39,834 Interrogating me over every single text, every phone call. 562 00:44:39,935 --> 00:44:43,151 Even turning up at work to check on me. 563 00:44:43,252 --> 00:44:46,433 You know, who was I talking to? What was her name? 564 00:44:47,529 --> 00:44:49,694 I'd come back from a day of mayhem at work, 565 00:44:49,791 --> 00:44:51,675 and she'd start it all again. 566 00:44:52,846 --> 00:44:55,157 God knows the hours I spent trying to... 567 00:44:55,261 --> 00:44:57,837 trying to help her, trying to reassure her... 568 00:44:57,935 --> 00:45:00,968 Someone gets into that kind of paranoid mindset, 569 00:45:01,067 --> 00:45:02,951 nothing you can say or do... 570 00:45:03,819 --> 00:45:07,250 Eventually, I... I ended it, for her sanity as much as mine. 571 00:45:09,209 --> 00:45:11,584 And a week later, she threw herself under a train. 572 00:45:13,357 --> 00:45:16,108 If it was to punish me... it worked. 573 00:45:19,349 --> 00:45:22,819 You mustn't blame yourself... you tried to help her. 574 00:45:24,366 --> 00:45:26,250 It wasn't enough, though, was it? 575 00:45:36,993 --> 00:45:39,368 SHE QUIVERS 576 00:45:56,183 --> 00:45:58,069 SHE GASPS 577 00:46:02,826 --> 00:46:03,849 It was him. 578 00:46:03,953 --> 00:46:05,837 FLASHBACK LISA WHIMPERS 579 00:46:06,709 --> 00:46:08,377 SHE GASPS 580 00:46:08,474 --> 00:46:12,925 It was Matty. HE PANTS